Delicious!

Had my first dinner at Delicious in Bangsar last night with my dear~

Dear had Green Curry Chicken; while I had Thai Beef Salad. Mmm.... Delicious! =)

And then we ended our meal with a Black Forrest in a Glass. Yum yum~ sweeet~ =)

and some pictures of ourselves-- :p

我喜欢

喜欢依偎在你的胸膛，小声地和你谈着话；又或者静静地抱在一起，无声胜有声。在这些时刻，真希望我们能够一直这样直到永远。=)

实际行动，开始！

最近受到了刚逝世的朋友的启发，回头望一望我过去的生活，才惊然发现，我好像浪费了我二十年的岁月。感觉上我好像对这个社会，对我的家，对我的国家，及对我的人生从没做出太多的付出，也没有贡献。心里还常在想着长大以后我要实现这一个梦想，那一个梦想；但实际上却从没做出任何行动，所有的梦想都只止于幻想，一切都只是纸上谈兵。

现在假期到了，原想好好的享受，好好的放轻松，好好的玩乐；却觉得我在蹉跎岁月，生活除了自己的享受，毫无意义。再这样下去，我永远都只会活在白日梦里。所以，我下定决心了。我要开始实际行动，一步一步，慢慢的迈向着我的梦想及目标前进。我要完成我想做的事情（当然还有主耶稣要我做的事情），不让生命留下遗憾，也不让我自己有后悔的机会。

可容，加油加油加油！！！=）

19 November 2010, A.M.

It is joyful to know that you are now with our Lord Jesus, free from pain and suffering. However, our hearts still ache when we reminisce the good times we had together. Even though I wasn't a very close friend of yours, your kindness, your generosity, your beautiful singing voice, your ever willingness to help and sacrifice, still overflows into people around you and warms the hearts of many, silently.

Thank you for all that you have done for us. Thank you for being so willing to fetch me around all the time. Thank you for the sacrifices you made for our church ministries. Thank you for singing. Thank you for always sharing nice songs. Thank you for being willing to teach me bass (even though I failed to learn, my bad). Thank you for being part of my life, our lives. Thank you. =)

and I thank God for you.

You will be greatly missed. Your footprints are carved in our hearts and we will forever carry memories of you. Your beautiful soul will remain in our hearts, until the day we meet again in heaven.

Dear friend, 加油！

At that time, millions of emotions were just flooding my heart and mind. It's tough, to see a friend lying sedated on a hospital bed. I know, that God is in control, He has better plans that we probably won't ever be able to comprehend. But it's just bitter, to see a dear friend's life seemingly ticking away along with the clock; someone whom the last time I met was still active and happy, now lying sedated in bed because of the pain his illness is causing him.

It is my prayer, for him to overcome this illness, to defeat it and rejoice in victory. But also, for God to ease his suffering, to take the pain and suffering away from him. For God's will to be done. With all the faith I have, I believe God is working on His plan. A plan not to harm, but to prosper. Regardless of my understanding on His plans, it will be the best for my friend.

Dear friend, 加油加油加油！！You know we are all waiting for you to come back and join us with our outings, movies and randomness. And please do not lose faith in our Lord, He still loves you.

On another positive note, my driving skills are improving. At least I think it is. =)

Lead me and I will follow..

As I wait

I'll rise up like the eagle

And I will soar with You

Your Spirit leads me on

In the power of Your love

Roller coaster

Back in the humid tropical country I love! Feels so good to be home! Feels good to see my family! Feels good to see my dear! Feels so good to sleep in my beloved room! Feels good to eat good home cook food! Feels good to eat good Malaysian food! I am happy! =D

However, on the other hand, the uncertainties of my future and my rocking faith is slowly eating me away. I'm slowly starting to lose focus. I don't know what I should do. Emotions are riding on roller coaster. Even though it's good to be home, the stress of constantly being questioned, constantly being expected to work, constantly being questioned of my abilities is high, constantly being discouraged and not listened to is still unbearable. I want to escape, already.

I need to work. I need to earn money. I need to rise up high. I can't slack. I can't take a break. I can't go for a holiday. I have no right to spend. I have to be independent.

I don't want to explain. I don't want to talk.

I want to be left alone.