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The Start of Something New

Finally! I'm officially starting work tomorrow! Tomorrow's the day that I officially step into the working world.. All kinds of imaginations have been running through my mind for the past year, and now I finally get to experience the real thing. Not sure if I'll like it, not really sure what to expect, not really sure what will be expected of me, not really sure how things are going to turn out. But I'm pumped and ready to go! Lord, I commit my career into Your hands, may You take control of it and may Your will be done in me!

Tomorrow will be the start of something new.. Can't wait!

Side note: The family that I'm currently staying with is so nice! They're friendly, flexible, helpful, understanding etc.. and the kids are soooo cuteee! aww love them! friendly, bubbly, cute, smart, obedient and good.. pray that our relationship will always be good and will be even better as the day goes by~

*Singaporeans are so efficient! XD

Unicorn

A beautiful creature of myth, only to be seen whispered, but never caught or tamed.

Something that man can only long for but never going to attain.

~Apple Pie

Fear being masked

Most of the time, the expression of anger is only a mask of fear. The fear of losing someone dear can be so great that people do not know how to react to it. They're crying inside, but they can't show it, because the world sees it as a weakness. People are not allowed to cry. And so, the only way to express fear is through anger.

My dear self, please always remember, do not judge only by what you see on the outside. Search for what is hidden, because that is the real truth. Do not be angered by what family members say or express, because they're only afraid of separation. Do not be irritated by the calmness shown when you think they're suppose to break down, because that's their way to help others and/or to hide their fear and uncertainty. They may be screaming inside, you never know. Answer their questions with patience and clarity, because they're brains are in a mess, even if they look calm.

See the tears, feel the fear.

Good times with an old friend =）

Just realized I'm pretty bad with alcohol... Haihz... Not fun at all to have the head spinning like mad and to vomit and hangover the next day.. Quite an experience it was.. But, oh well~ Gotta drink less next time! =p

Good times just lying down on the grass with a good friend, looking at the sky and moon, and just talking about anything.. Put aside the too-much-alcohol part, it was a good night.. =)

够了，结束了，好吗？

1。好想找到一份合适的工作
2。好想再跳回芭蕾舞
3。好想学跳其他的舞蹈

真的好想好想。。

已经太久了。身边的人还在鼓励我，叫我不要气馁。Must continue to have faith, continue to pray, continue to believe.. 但是我已经迷路了。已经不知道要期待什么，希望什么；不知道该怎么祷告，不知道该坚持什么。Have faith in.....? Pray for.....? Believe that.....? 我从来都没想过自己会沦落到这个地步。眼前就是一片黑暗，就是一点光也没有。当初为什么会选这条路，我很清楚。我也一直相信我选的路是对的。可是现在，我犹豫了。我，错了吗？

我已经没有能力分辨对与错，已经没有能力再冷静分析，也已经差不多没有力气坚持了。现在只是在深水中挣扎，也不知道为了什么而挣扎。只是为了存活吗？不知道。

拜托，这样的日子真的很难过。结束了，好不好？我真的很彷徨，很无助。眼前一道又一道的门在关闭，已经不再是 “要走哪条路”，而是 “有哪条路可以走”。我到底该怎么办？我该放弃我的梦想吗？还是，我的梦想是什么？我该坚持吗？但是，坚持什么？

为什么会这样？

我知道 - by2

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Nature reveals His glory

Today's devotion was about how God reveals Himself to all of us through his work in nature. The scripture quoted was in Psalm 19:

The heaven declare the glory of God;

the skies proclaim the work of his hands.

Day after day they pour forth speech;

night after night they display knowledge.

There is no speech or language

where their voice is not heard.

Their voice goes out into all the earth,

their words to the ends of the world.

Reading this scripture and devotion passage reminded me once again about the beauty of creation I saw in Philippines. It was a sight that took my breath away. And it was at that moment that I realized how amazing God's creation is; how beautiful the world is; how glorious and majestic His power and creation are; how freely He pours out His grace, mercy and love to us. Indeed, He doesn't hide anything. If we were to look at nature properly, we'd see His marvelous work every single day. We'd see His promises for us, we'd be confident that our God truly exist, every single day. He doesn't hide His truth. He's shown it to us every where. He exists.

One paragraph in the devotion passage that I really like: "When we consider how some trees look totally dead during winter and come back to life each spring, we are reminded that God will bring our lives back into full bloom, even if we feel lifeless or hopeless because of our circumstances." =)

I guess I've arrived at an age, where I can't just live in my own world made of candies and chocolates. The many stresses of life are evident not only through my life, but through those whom I know. Many of us seem to be struggling to see the light of hope, we're like standing on sinking sand, desperately stretching out to gasp for some air. The truth of the harshness of life is right in our faces, and we realize that what we're facing, what we have to bear for the rest of our lives is not just something that can be brushed away with a shrug and smile, nor ignored. What we're facing, or about to face, can be so heavy a burden that if we're not careful, we'd sink into darkness and lose hope.

But despite all these, please always remember, that you're not alone. Sounds cliche-ish, but it's true. Just look around you, see the beauty of God's creation and be reminded, that the same God that created the world in perfection, created you. Like how the trees that look dead bloom again into life, God will carry us through, and as we persevere, as we cling on to Him, we'd bloom into life again. =)  And let this promise reside in us, so that we be joyful from deep in our hearts, no matter what situation we're going through. We're not standing on sinking sand, but on solid rock; we're not living in darkness because God brings hope and light, and there's no darkness in light.

He knows my name

He knows my every thought

He sees each tear that falls

And He hears me when I call

He knows.. my friends, He knows.. He knows everything. So be assured, that everything's under His control. Submit it all to Him and don't worry. He's right there with you. Soar with Him on wings like eagles. Continue to seek Him. The harder life gets, the more we cling on to Him. =)  Hang in there!!