God always prepares us

One morning while I was doing my devotions, I felt the Spirit of God telling me to be patient. At the time, I didn't think much about it, thought it was just some random thought or just a daily reminder kinda thing. But that day, the patient I was caring for was having her "down-day". It was quite hard for us carers, as she wouldn't respond, wouldn't eat nor drink for the whole day. At one point, I lost a little of my patience and tried to give her some water with a little bit more force, using merely human effort. Well, she did respond to it, but still didn't drink. At the end of the day, I had the "Moses" feeling, where he lost his patience towards the Egyptians and struck the rock.

While I was driving home, I thought about my day and my actions, and I remembered what the Holy Spirit was trying to tell me in the morning. Then it dawned on me that that was actually a reminder and preparation that God was giving me to face the day. He did ask me to be patient, just that I didn't take it seriously and did not apply it throughout my day. I should have taken it more seriously and clung on to it throughout the day. Then I realized, maybe God does it for us, every single time we are going to go through a difficult situation. He prepares us, but most of the time, we don't realize it. And because of our insensitivity to the Spirit, we ignore the preparations or "warnings", or we forget about it when we're in the difficult situation.

So next time, I shall be more sensitive and make sure I take whatever the Spirit is telling me seriously.. =p

Another type of flower to be added to my list of "flowers-i-like" =D

Saw a picture on my friend's blog and instantly fell in love with it. Don't get me wrong, I still love you my daisies =)

Aren't they beautiful? To me, it brings peace, beauty and purity. They're not fancy, they're not colourful, they're just of simple shape and a simple most common colour. But yet, in that simplicity, you find peace, and the beauty that you see when you look at it, seems like it comes from within, along with elegance, but not too much of it. Lovely! =)

The Power of Proclaimation

Currently I'm working as a personal care giver to a patient who has cancer and is currently bed-ridden. The patient and her family are Christians. Well, her daughter accepted Christ many years ago, but the patient herself is still a new believer. Due to their belief, they have a lot of Christian books about healing, and the patient's daughter has encouraged me to read the books to her mother and even to impart spiritual encouragement and read the bible to her mother. So throughout the period of taking care of this patient, I have actually gained a lot knowledge in divine healing. I must say, being a private personal care giver in someone's home is so different from being a nurse in a hospital. It is definitely a challenge for me. But through this challenge, I have learnt so much. I have learnt the power of faith in healing, the way healing works, and how faith can really move mountains, and have come to realize how small my faith is when it comes to divine healing. God really CAN heal and He is WILLING to heal those who are sick! Remember Jesus, there wasn't anyone who came to Jesus for healing and wasn't healed, except those who didn't actually believe He could. So really, our faith plays a huge role in healing. It's like, Jesus is giving us a gift - healing, (in fact, He has already given us the healing 2000+ years ago on the cross), but whether or not we receive it depends on us. We are the receiver. If the receiver is off, is not willing to receive, then how can the giver give? And when praying for healing, we should not doubt. We pray and we proclaim that we have receive healing. Because the fact is we do have it. We just gotta claim it and declare it and praise Him for it! =)

Yeap, it's easier to understand, but I know it takes even more courage to actually put the understandings into actions. But hey, we can do all things in God who strengthens us! =)

One day, the patient that I'm caring for had a very bad mood. Yes, every patient has their up-day and down-day, even normal people do. At first, I called that day a down-day. But it was far more than just down. She wasn't responding to anything. She didn't eat, drink nor talk. Only opened her eyes occasionally, but does not convey anything through them. Even when we inflict pain, she doesn't respond to it. It was that bad. It has happened a few times now, this time it got her daughters really worried, and they were thinking of inserting a nasogastric tube. She was the same when I went home. The next morning as I was doing my devotions, I had the urge to pray for her specifically in this matter. But my prayer was different that morning. I started of with the usual prayer asking God to bring her out of it, but after a while, I felt that I should declare God's power instead. I decided to proclaim that God is able and she is already being brought out of it. When I go to the house, I will see her smiling and she will be joyful. Now usually, proclaiming is not what I do, (sorry God for the little faith of mine), but that morning, I somehow had the courage to believe what I proclaimed and did not doubt at all. And when I arrived at the house, guess what! She was smiling! It happened! She was smiling, joyful, and she was back to normal, just even better! It actually took me a while to sink in the fact that the proclaimation actually worked! Not that I didn't believe that it would work, it's just that it was my first time, and I was just in awe.

That, is the power of proclaimation. =)


On another note, last week has also been a very hectic and stressful week for me. I had so much on my plate that I couldn't handle it. Some of the things were to find some equipments needed for our Christmas project, to practice bass as I was playing the Sunday, coordinate and preparing for practice on Friday, meet up with some friends as one of them is leaving to Singapore, prepare lessons for missions trip, and I was working for long hours every day. It was so heavy on me that the chinese phrase 压得我喘不过气 was literal. The stress alone made me cry a few times. In my quiet time, I commit the week into God's hands, I needed His guidance, I needed Him very much, it was impossible to make it without His help, literally. And in the end, I managed to manage my time well and did what I had to do well. And on top of that, my week ended well. All glory goes to Him. For I am 100% positive that without Him, the week would have been a disaster. Once again, God has proven to me His power and abilities. Praise the Lord! =D

给以后的自己

你绝对不能变成那个样子。就算是现在，十年，二十年，三十年后，永远都不可以。不可以还没看清楚事实的全部，就自己乱下定论，然后乱责怪别人，乱发脾气。下定论之后，又不再听别人所说的。别人说什么，自己都听不入耳，还扭曲真相。

因为这样，真的很伤身、伤神、和伤人。

别人告诉你你的错处，就应该反省，不是责怪别人。因为不是关心你的人，根本就不会理你，让你继续错下去。所谓当局者迷，旁观者清。